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Video number 2 is up

Empites

I'm trying to get a bunch of videos edited and posted

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Planning

While cleaning and organizing my closet yesterday, I had to stop many times to plan outfits for disney world!!


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Sad

I made the very sad choice to sell the Beauty and the Beast dress I bought a while back. It was just 100% not what I wanted. The style was not how it showed online and it is way to small. Although I do plan on losing weight before I go to disney world, I still don't like the style. So I'm going to sell it.
But now, I'm on the hunt for a new Beauty and the Beast dress/skirt to wear in Disney!!!


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First day

Today is my first real day of training at the hospital!! I'll be doing real unit clerk things and not just sitting in a corner doing computer training!! I am beyond excited! A little nervous! But I just can't wait for my first day!


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Sleeping in

Taking totally advantage of days I can sleep in cause soon I won't have many of them!


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The force awakens

I seriously don't think my brother has talked about anything BUT Star Wars the force Awakens in the last few months. I have never seen him so excited for anything before.


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Clothes!!

Thinking about what I should wear on my first day of my new job tomorrow !!!!!!!


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Not going to be fun

Soooo not looking forward to tonight at all


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Ebates

I've had ebates for over a month now. I've made 5 purchases from it and I already have over $30 in cash back!! Like this app is actually awesome!!

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Sephora

I have a 15% off coupon for sephora but it's only good until the 13th! Why can't it be good until my Christmas credit card bill is paid off!!
First world problems!!


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Vlog

Finally getting more vidoes edited and up on my channel!! 

Check them out!! 

Alone

Another lonely night
Seems like no one actually cares about my feelings


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Organized

Finally got my bathroom and most of my bedroom organized!!!
Feeling good lol


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Head cash

Finally scheduled some head cashier shifts!!!
Now I just need to get my dang police check so I can start working at the hospital!!!
Seriously so excited !!! Even though working 2 jobs is going to be brutal, I am so excited and can't wait


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Here I go!

Today I begin my journey!
I have no number in mind, just a goal!
By the time I go to Disney World next year, I want to be proud of myself!


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Scrubs

I found an etsy store that has tons of different/awesome scrubs!!!! Including Beauty and the Beast scrubs!!!!
And there goes all my money!!!


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Puppy

Little puppy got surgery yesterday!!! Such a tired boy!! Slept almost all day afterwards.


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This morning

Taking my little bro to his swim practice this morning, then my little fluff ball to the vet! Then work!

Wish I felt a little better though :( feeling so sick right now !


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Crafts

Just posted 50 million of my crafts to sell!!
People!! Buy my junk!!


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So annoyed

Seriously so annoyed! I'm probably the only 23 year old who has to make sure it's ok with my mom when I colour my hair!
I legit hate my natural hair colour! And the last time I got it done, person didnt listen to a word I said! Didn't add anymore colour, just highlights! I do not like my hair light!! And it's so frustrating that I get in trouble when I want to colour it darker so I'll actually like it!


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Hair!!!

Getting my hair re-coloured on Wednesday!!! No more blonde highlights in my hair!! I want it all brunette!!
Then I need to remember to get it done again right before I go to Disney World in August!!! Gotta have that beautiful Belle brown hair!!!


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Hedley!!!!

Got tickets to see Hedley in May!!!!!!
Holy shit!!!!! I am sooooo freaking excited!!!!!!

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Frustrating

It is so frustrating when I am trying to order stuff for Christmas and it says my credit card information is incorrect!! I entered it in 17 times!!!!! It is not incorrect!!! Let me order awesome Jurassic park stuff for my bro!!!


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Opps

Went onto Walmart.ca to order something for my dad for Christmas. Ended up spending $140.....
My dad's gift was $20



Oops

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Goal

I'm making it a goal for myself to start losing weight! I am going on a cruise in March and then Disney World in August!! I want to be able to eat food on this trip without feeling guilty about it!!
About 8 months ago, someone I thought was my best friend, stabbed me in the back. It hurt a lot. But I am a better person now! That person does not deserve my friendship and I'm done feeling sad that they aren't in my life anymore!!
I am so happy these days!! I am slowly but surely becoming the person I want to be!! I am happy with myself and I want to start being happy in my own body!!


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Christmas shopping

Christmas shopping in bed on ebates app!!
I could get used to this :)


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Goodbye

Guess I'm not even worthy of a goodbye to you?
Good! I'm done! I can't wait to never see or hear from you ever again!
My life will be so much better without you dragging me down! Hope you and your cheating whore are happy!


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Sleeping in

Waking up in the morning and realizing you don't have to get up!!
Best feeling ever!


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My life

The last few days of my life have just been so busy and completely exhausting! I am so looking forward to having a day off tomorrow and then a couple short shifts at work that don't start until a little later in the day so I can sleep in. Normally, I would much rather a morning shift. But I'm just so incredibly exhausted. I need every little bit of sleep I can get right now because I know in a few weeks, my life is going to get even crazier. But I can't wait for that to happen!!


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Job

I am seriously so excited for my new job and I just can't wait to start! I want to go shopping for scrubs and start already!


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Plaid

I remember the days when i owned one plaid shirt
What was I thinking?


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Hurry up

The sooner my police check comes, the sooner I can start my new job!!!


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Scrubs

Just discovered Mark's is on ebates!!
Hello cash back on scrubs!!!


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Happy

Nothing can describe how insanely happy I am at this very moment!!


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Christmas

I've gotten my sister and my mom Christmas presents. I know what I'm going to get my bro and dad!
Am I done now?


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Disney

Literally the only good thing that has happened to me today is that wreck it Ralph is on tv at work
Thank you disney!


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Lonely

Having another night where I wish I had someone to come over and just sit with me

But I have no one


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Vlog

Just got a whole bunch of things from Sephora!! Just waiting for my package from BH cosmetics to come in and I'll be making a haul video!!


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Work

I honestly can't believe how much work had taken advantage and screwed me over the last few weeks! I'm so over this!
A couple of days ago, I was saying how I would love to get a part time or casual job at a hospital so I can keep my job at Home Depot. Now I don't give a crap! The second I find a new job, I'm done! After working so hard and being such a good employee for over a year, this is how I get treated??


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Mascara obsession

I am making it my life goal to try every single mascara ever!!


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Dress Shopping

Can't wait to go wedding dress shopping with my best friend in the whole world!
I am so excited for her wedding! She is going to be the most beautiful bride!

Cuts

So this happened at work today!!
Another cut on my finger!
At least this one I know where it came from!


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Video

After being MIA on YouTube for a few weeks, I'm finally posting a new Vlog on my channel today!! So check it out and I hope you enjoy


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Promotion

Got my official job offer from my manager! Starting November 29th, I'm going to be a head cashier at Home Depot!!

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Sleep

When you fall asleep realizing how much better off you are in life without people holding you down anymore, and then you sleep like a baby :)

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Interview

Interviewer: what are your talents?
Me: if I fall asleep while watching tv, I always wake up in time to turn on the next episode!


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Invite

Last minute invite

Chris Evans, you are invited to my Halloween party tomorrow! I hope you can make it


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Halloween

Last year, I was so excited for my Halloween party, only to have it ruined by something so stupid!!!
But tomorrow, I will be having my Halloween party and nothing is going to ruin it!! It is going to be so much fun and I am so excited and can't wait to see everyone's costumes


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Exciting news

I GOT A PROMOTION!!!
I have about 3 weeks of cash shifts and then I will begin to train as a head cashier!!! I'm so excited and so happy to be given this exciting chance to show that I can be a leader at Home Depot!!

Go tay

Poor tay had to use one of these today!


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Hair cut

Before


After

Done

I'm done!! I officially give up! I tired multiple times and it's always you being the one who ends the conversation! It's always me who messages you! So I'm done! Don't care if your mom tells my mom that you miss me! I'm done being the one who is always trying! If you miss me so damn much, prove it!

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Work

I start work in 4 hours. Should I get up and be productive? Or lay in bed for another hour?

As if that's a real question


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Interview

Tomorrow I have an interview for a higher position where I work! I'm feeling really confident about it! But nervous at the same time. One other person has interviewed for it and I'm super nervous. I really want this role and I'm really looking forward to trying something new. I just really hope they see that I will shine at this


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Burger

Damn you How I Met your Mother! Now I want a burger!


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Amanda

When Amanda is in Calgary, we go to the Disney Store! Some things never change :)


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Work

The only good thing about getting up super early for work is knowing tomorrow is my day off!!!
The plan for tomorrow...
HALLOWEEN DECORATING!!!!


Also I have a million chores ...


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Bedtime

It is 8:30 and I am so sleepy!
So yes! I am going to bed this early!


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Promotion?

Applied today for a new position here at Home Depot! It's not exactly everything I want in the sense that I still would like to get a job at a hospital. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed for something new here!


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Work

Very much looking forward to getting off work in 2 hours and spending the rest of the day putting up Halloween decorations


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Ebates

I decided to check out the app ebates! And I made my first purchase on it! I've heard good things about it and I'm looking forward to trying it out and seeing how it works for me :)

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Work

Getting up for work at 5 am would be so much better and easier if I could wear leggings to work!


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HES BACK

CAPTAIN HOLTS BACK!!!!!!!


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Halloween

Just spent the day halloween shopping!! Got so much awesome stuff and so thrilled to set it all up!!


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Halloween

Going halloween shopping tomorrow with my pal from work!! Should be a lot of fun!!


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Tattoo

It's going to hurt to sleep tonight!! But so happy!! Just took the bandaid off and it looks incredible!! The redness had faded already and is barely outlining the tattoo itself! My sister had to help me take the bandaid off cause it was in such an awkward place and she was like, wow it looks awesome!!
Having this symbol and these words on my body for the rest of my life mean so much to me! I will always remember to always be happy and that no matter what happens, I am invincible and nothing can or will tear me down!


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Birthday present

Feeling so happy right now!!!!


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Birthday present

I am sitting in the waiting room!! Final adjustments are being made!!
It's just about time!!


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So excited

Although this is going to be so painful, I am beyond excited for the emotional breakthrough I am going to feel having an amazing piece of work on my body to tell myself everyday that no matter what happens, I am strong! I can get through anything and I am Invincible! No matter what happens in my life, as long as I can truly tell myself that I am happy, life will be good


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My body

Staring at that blank spot on my body and just so damn excited that in a few hours I will have something beautiful there to remind me every time of what I went through and that no matter what, I am strong and I can get through anything that this world throws at me!


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My sis

Happy to say my big sis is home!! She's in a lot of pain but she's tough as nails! Crawling up the stairs, not letting me do certain things for her cause she needs to do them herself!
Love you sis!! Until you are healed, I am here for you!

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Sis

Waiting for my sister to come home!!!


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Countdown

One more day !!!
Tomorrow I finally get my awesome birthday present to myself!!!!


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Sister

Wishing my big sister all the best!! She's off getting knee surgery today. I hope all goes well so you can finally stop hurting so bad.
Love you sis


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Countdown

2 more days until my birthday present!!
Holy shit!!! I am sooooooooo excited!!!!

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:)

Feeling so much better
I'm
So happy I have one true friend I can truly talk to about anything no matter what!
Thanks for always being there for you!
I love you so much!


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So hungry

I am so hungry and so excited for my lunch!!
Turkey dinner leftovers!!

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Sports

I don't care what anyone says
Baseball is boring


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Friend

Just want my best friend back!
But I feel like I'm slowly becoming less and less to you and I'm losing you :(

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:(

I can't do this anymore
If you don't want to be my friend anymore, just say so!
I'm sick of trying so hard just to have a single conversation with you and feeling like you are ignoring me.
I honestly felt like you were the only friend I had left and now, here we go again!
Another "friend" showing me that I mean nothing to them!
Seriously, what the fuck am I doing so wrong that everyone I thought was my friend is treating me like this?


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Countdown

4 more days until my birthday present!


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Oww

Third time I cut myself at work and have zero idea how it happened


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Best friend?

Once again, feeling like I'm losing my best friend :(


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My day

Spent literally my whole day painting! I am covered in paint and so happy!
I have decided to sell a bunch of stuff at a craft fair in November! So I have to make a whole ton of stuff to sell! But I am so excited and I can not wait! I have a whole bunch of ideas! Now just a matter of taking those ideas out of my head and creating them! But so far, the things I have made have turned out Fantastic and I hope people will like them and buy them :)


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Sephora

If I had money, I would make the largest sephora purchase ever right now and then just sit at my mailbox until it arrived!!


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Painting

Literally spending all of today painting!
So that means the shittness that was yesterday has disappeared!
Thank you paint brushes for making my life better!


Also I'm getting a tattoo in 6 days and I am freaking beyond excited!!!


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Ice cream

Someone please bring me ice cream!
Thank you


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Countdown

6 more days until I get my birthday present !!!


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Online shopping

As soon as my credit card is paid off, I am going on the biggest online shopping spree EVER


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Who?

Who is looking down on me and making all the choices in my life that I am never allowed to be happy?


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no hope for me

Chris Evans, can you please just come out of hiding and marry me?


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I hate my life

I legit hate my life
I have no one
I have no friends
No one who cares about me
And every time I feel like I might have someone, turns out, I'm wrong
What's the point


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Sad

I just wish I could be happy
Have one thing in my life work out
I feel like my life is worthless and I will never look at myself in the mirror and not see myself with a fake smile on my face.


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Arts and crafts

I am excited to spend all my time off doing nothing but arts and crafts!


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Countdown

In one week, I'll be getting my birthday present !!


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Micheals

If I was a millionaire, I'd buy everything at Micheals!! And make ALL the crafts!!!!


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Phone case

Well my Haunted Mansion phone case has done we very well! But it's time for a new one! Just ordered myself a brand new spanking phone case! Can't wait for it to come in!


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22

Spending my final hours of being 22 laying in bed watching YouTube!
Well this has been one hell of a year!
Had some great times and some awful times.
Looking forward to seeing what 23 has in store for me


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Oops

When you cut yourself and start bleeding and you have zero idea how it happened!


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Countdown

2 days until my birthday
12 days until my birthday present


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Birthday plans

For my birthday, I either want to go to the trampoline park!
Or go to my grandmas and scrapbook!

My 2 choices for my 23rd birthday are things a 5 year old would do, and a 50 year old would do

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Countdown

3 more days until my birthday
13 more days until my birthday present


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Morning cuddles

Some girls have their boyfriends or husbands to snuggle with!
I have this guy!


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Countdown

4 days until my birthday
14 days until my birthday present


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Crafts

Scalpels, hot glue and axes!
This is how I craft!


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Ontario

Missing my ladies in Ontario
Sometimes I wish I could pack up this life and move away
I wish I could erase my horrible memories and move somewhere to start anew

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Arts and crafts

A night of arts and crafts!!


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Work

Forgot I had to work this morning and my alarm went off and I'm like, wtf is going on???? Then I remembered! Damn! I gotta get up! WAH!


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August

I want it to be August so I can be going to Disney World with Tori!!! I'm sooo excited!!! Going to be the greatest trip ever!!
I miss Disney World soooo much it's not even funny!!


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Countdown

One week until my birthday!
17 days until my birthday present!


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Name

One year later and I am finally Jodey at work and not Jody!!


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So sleepy

Woman I work with comes in yesterday and says, "i got a root canal yesterday and it still hurts so I may or may not come in tomorrow"
Therefore, I was asked to come in this morning at 7 AM!
So sleepy! Barely slept at all last night!
The worst is she says she "might" come in! So if she does, I'll kinda me pissed! Like I could have had an extra hour of sleep! Also, if she does come in, there will be 3 people on the same shift, which means, probably my break is going to be the one that'll be an hour late!

As you can tell I am not looking forward to going to work today.
One more day and then I have 3 days off and 4 days to sleep in !!


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Countdown

8 more days until my birthday!
18 more days until my birthday present!


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Countdown

20 more days!


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Lush UnBoxing

Thanks for the gift Michela!!

Tattoo

Just booked tattoo number 3!!!


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Trapped

Help! I'm trapped!


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Dumb slut

Did I not say this would happen?
Did I not say you would drop me from your life?
Yet you promised me that you wouldn't
Sure enough, here we are


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I hate you

I hate you and I blame you for taking my life and turning it into the biggest piece of shit ever


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That name

I thought I heard someone call me by THAT name today! I almost socked them in the face!
I know this person doesn't know me or my life, but never EVER call me by that whores name!


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Puppy

At least I will always have Weasley to let me hold him when I need to cry.


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Sad

I'm sick of feeling like no matter what I do, I'm just the biggest screw up and nothing will ever go good for me in my life

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Trapped

I'm trapped!! Someone come help!!


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Girl guides

I am legit the biggest sucker for girl guides! They come to the door! Would you like to buy some cookies?
YES!! ILL TAKE THEM ALL!!

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New Vlog

This video literally took a year and a half to upload to Youtube!

But here it finally is!

Relationship Status

Relationship Status
Sharing the same pillow with my pup


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Puppy dog

My sister may be in Disney World, but I'm having a slumber party with Weasley!


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Friends

Had such a wonderful night yesterday!
Sometimes you don't see a friend for a really long time but that doesn't mean they don't love you, and aren't there for you!
So happy we were able to spend some time together yesterday! Can't wait to see you again!


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The conjuring

FINALLY!! Watching the conjuring !


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Jeans

At the moment, I am cleaning out my closet.
I just went through all my jeans and tried them on to see what fits me.
HOW DID I EVER LIKE JEANS?!?!
Literally, the only thing jeans are good for are, first dates, Ranchmans
and that's it!

Mascara

Some may say I have a problem! I say, they are wrong!


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Cold

I'm so cold!!!! I wish I could wear my heated blanket

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Tattoo

Maybe! Maybe!!!! I wanna get a tattoo when I go to disney world next year!! I'll have to see if I have time

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Relationship status

Relationship Status: taking naps with my puppy!


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High school

My little bro went off for his very first day of high school!! I'm so proud of him! It's days like today I wish I still lived at home so I could see him off before he goes


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New Vlog

Check out my latest Vlog!

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Work

Coming soon, to my current bank account, FULL TIME HOURS AT HOME DEPOT!!
Beyond excited that in a few weeks I will be back to my regular hours!
Time to start paying off some student debt!


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My Day

I had such a good day yesterday

I went and tried hot yoga for the very first time and super enjoyed it!!

Then my bestie came over and we watched a scary movie!! 

Such a good day!

Now today, I feel so sick, and I have to go to work =(

Scary Movies

Forgot how much I love scary movies!!
Kendra, you need to come over more often so we can watch more!!

Real friends

Sometimes I just have to remember the real friends I have and it makes me so happy!!
Can't wait to see my lovely Tori Pie next year in Disney World


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Sad

It makes me sad that it seems like I'm the only one trying to keep our friendship and you seem to not care at all about me


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All done

Happy to announce that after 8 months of school, I have passed all my classes and I am officially a certified Hospital Unit Clerk! Can't wait to get a job and start being a grown up!


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School

Just finished my last class!!
I have 2 finals on Thursday and then I am all done school!
I can't believe 8 months ago, I started this course and now in 2 days I will be all done!!


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Push over

I've been told my whole life that I'm "easy going" and I've always been ok with that.
What I'm not ok with, is people I thought were my friends, taking me, and walking all over me because of it!
I'm am so sick and tired of being hurt over and over and over again by these people who claim to care about me, but it's pretty damn clear all that matters to them is themselves and making sure they get whatever they want! Doesn't matter who they have to hurt, walk all over or stab in the back to get it!

It would just be nice to actually finally feel like I have some decent friends who care about me and aren't going to hurt me!

I honestly forget what happiness feels like, and I blame you! You took it away from me and then dangle it in front of my face like it's some kind of game! That's not what real friends do! A real friend would see how I've been feeling that last few months and step up and be there for me when I've been down! But you care about nothing but yourself!

I have no problem being easy going
But I am done playing your fucking games!
I am done being a push over


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Look What I got

New Vlog!

My order from AliExpress came in!

Look what I got!

Sad

I'm so sick and tired of being so sad

Work

So after I'm done school, I have a few weeks that I'm still only working part time before I start full time hours again! I'm so excited I can have a little time off to relax, paint, scrapbook, and spend time with some friends!


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Med Term

Soooooo happy to announce that I passed my media terminology exam!!!!
I only have 2 more exams to write and then I will be finished my course and on my way to becoming a Unit Clerk!!!

Costco

Reason I need a boyfriend, so they can come to Costco with me and get me a hotdog while I wait in line


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Med term

Feeling really really nervous about my medical terminology test !! Really wishing my teacher isn't super lazy and actually starts marking them right away and posting our marks!
Newsflash! This was an online course! You did nothing all semester! Maybe now actually do something right away!


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No more ink

You know the school year is coming to a close when all your pens start running out of ink!


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Exams!

Writing exam number one of three today!!
I'm so happy that by the end of today, I will be done medical terminology !!


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Switched at birth

Seriously just lost so must respect in switched at birth when Bay said she hates Thomas Kinkade paintings!


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Puppy progress

Today weasley pooped once in the house but has only ever peed on his pee pad! I'm so proud of him! He's learning!


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New VS Video

New VS Video on my YouTube Channel!

So upset

I'm so tired of feeling like this!
Feeling so alone and like no one cares about me


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School

Very very very very very badly do not want to go to school today!! I got no sleep!
I am just so done with everything! Sick and tired of feeling like this and like no one gives a crap about me anymore!


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Done

I don't know what to do anymore! I've tried so hard! I've tried everything I can think of! But none of it is enough! I'm so sick of being pushed further and further away! But as soon as you need something from me, then it's like nothing's changed!
I can't deal with this anymore! Friendship is give and take! And these days, it feels like I'm the one doing all the giving, you're the one doing all the taking!
I'm done trying! I've given up hope on this whole "friendship" thing we were pretending we had for the last little while! It's become pretty damn clear I don't matter to you at all anymore! And I'm done being the one apologizing when I've done nothing wrong except being the only one out of the 2 of us trying to keep this friendship alive.


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Puppy

He may still be having accidents in the house, but he's starting to learn some things. He knows where his bowl is and how to let me know if he's hungry or thirsty. He also did go on his own on the deck yesterday which kind of shows he is kinda starting to get it!


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Thanks

Thanks for once again making me feel better and like things are going to be better and different.
Then ripping all hopes away like I never meant anything to you


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Computer

So my computer automatically updated itself and I am actually getting so frustrated with it! I can not find any of my pictures or videos! I can't open iPhoto!
So do not need this right now!

Snowpiercer

Watching this movie tonight!
My favourite teacher recommend it to me
And my future husband is in it! Can't go wrong!


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Dr. Phil

Sometimes during school, all I can think about is what kind of craziness is gunna happen on Dr. Phil today!!

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School

I can't believe I'm almost done school! It feels like only yesterday I was just starting, now I'm almost done and hopefully have a job lined up for when I'm all done!
So close to becoming a real live Unit Clerk!


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Weasley

My Puppy!

Sad

Not gunna lie, I don't know how I'm going to deal with this! Really trying not to let it totally kill me


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One day!

One day!
Can I just have one day where I don't want to lay in bed and cry! One day where I actually feel like I have a friend who cares! One day where I don't feel like nothing is ever going to go right in my life!


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Online

I ordered a pair of earrings and some clothes online so long ago and I'm getting impatient!
I want my things!!

Puppy

Everyone, meet little Weasley!


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Shark Fin Soap

Check out my new video on the awesome Shark Fin Soap from Lush!

Please Subscribe to see more!

Insurance

Finally got my claim back from my work insurance! Just put a claim with my student insurance! The sooner I get my money, the better!


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Sad

I just want to spend one day not sad, not feeling like my whole world is coming apart, I just want to be happy


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Puppy!!!!

Puppy comes home with us today !!!!! Really wish I didn't have to work !!!!


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Soft pretzel

I randomly really want a soft pretzel from downtown Disney!!
I'm such a fattie!


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Puppy

Puppy comes tomorrow!!! I am so excited!!! Wish I didn't have to work so I could go pick him up!!

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Dress

Just ordered an amazing Beauty and the Beast dress for when I go to Disney World next year!!


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Sam Hunt

Super excited for Sam Hunt tomorrow!!!


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Grr

Even my wifi is being a little meat stick right now!


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Raptors

Just saying, I wanted a pet raptor before Chris Pratt made it cool!


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Puppy

Only a week until my nephew is here!! Beyond excited to have a puppy back in my life

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June Favourites

A video from my vlog!

Check it out

=)

Disney

I'm excited to go to Disney World


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:(

I miss you
I hope you know that


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Almost there

I am 3/4 of a unit clerk!
Passed my intro to unit coordinating skills exam and my business communications exam!
Now all I have left to do is finish medical terminology, hospital info systems and fundamentals of medical orders, and I'm done!!
So looking forward to starting my new classes tomorrow


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Day 3

I guess day 3 of feeling totally and completely worthless can begin


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Thank you

Thank you for once again making me feel completely and totally worthless to you


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Work

After yesterday, I seriously do not want to go to work at all!!


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Awful

You have no idea how 2 little things you sad literally made me feel like
1: shit
2: worthless
3: nothing to you

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Today

One good thing happened today
Other then that, another shitty ass Saturday


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Exams

Just wrote 2 final exams to finish off my Spring Semester! Got 81% on one and 80% on the other! So happy!
Moving on to my last semester of school! Only about a month and a half to go and I will have completed my Unit Clerk Certificate! I am beyond excited to be done! Can not wait to get a career in Health Care and can't wait to walk the stage in February with all my pals!

Vlog

I started this a while ago, but haven't posted anything about it! I officially started a vlog on YouTube!! I'm having a lot of fun with it!!
Please check it out and subscribe!!!
Jodey s
!!!!


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Late

I'm sorry but I absolutely hate it when people are late!! In school and the workplace, it is beyond unprofessional! I seriously hope to one day become a teacher and not let someone write an exam because they are late. I know it sounds harsh, but seriously! Especially in college, you are there preparing yourself for a career, and yet you show up to a final exam because you slept in? No that's bullshit!!


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Problem

I am being faced with a problem right now
Either close my bedroom window and roast to death
Or leave it open and have to listen to my neighbours music all night

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Hooray

I just realized, I get to sleep in (kinda) everyday until the 8th!!!!!! Oh my gosh!! This is the best news of life!!


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Work

Dear work,
Can I pllllleeeeaaassseeee wear leggings to work today??? I promise I will not complain about anything


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So mad

Now I have to try as study even though I am beyond mad right now. This is going to be fun

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One day

Seriously, what do I have to do to go one day without wishing I was leading a completely different life? I just want so badly to be happy again. To feel like I have people in my life who love me and care about me.


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You

The way we talk, the way we joke, the way you make me laugh almost every moment, I don't want it to ever end.

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Thoughts

If only you knew the thoughts running through my brain right now
Would you still ignore me?


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Awful

This has seriously just been the worst day, from the very moment I woke up.
Praying that tomorrow goes a little bit better.

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All I want

All I want is that feeling of knowing I have someone I can turn too. Someone who will talk to me when I've had a shitty day. Someone who will listen. I don't have that anymore. I don't have anyone.


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Tonight

Tonight is the kind of night I need my best friend. And it felt nice when I thought he needed me too.
This is just another thing that is going to bring me down tonight.
I seriously just want this day to be over with.


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Thanks

And once again, feeling like I have no one to talk too! All I want is my best friend back.


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Mother

Things I will never say to my children: all the things my mother has said to me


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Walk away!

We've been told our whole lives to walk away from our bullies!
Trust me, if I could run away from my fucking bully and go somewhere they could never find me, I would
I can't do this anymore! I'm sick of being told everything is my fault and to stop feeling sorry for myself!
No! I'm not going to sit there and get told how I'm such an awful person because I made one mistake! Oh and by the way, the mistake was the laundry! I put one thing In a load of laundry that shouldn't have been there!
So yeah, that's my fucked up life!


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Good bye

Seriously wish I could take off and get the fuck out of this place!! I am so done with everything!
Done with all these "friends" of mine who treat me like I mean nothing to them and stab me in the back!
Done with this "family" of mine! Don't even bother to listen when I'm trying to tell them my good news, but when I make the smallest mistake, all fucking hell breaks lose, and I'm an ungrateful, horrible, rude person!
I am done being stuck in this fucking life where no matter how hard I fucking try to do anything right, I will always be everyone's fucking punching bag!
I swear, if I could pack up and move out, id be gone and you all would never see me again cause I am done! I didn't sign up to be the person everyone goes to to spit on and I'm done!

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Ugh

Getting off work at 10:30 sucks!! I am not sleepy at all but I have to go to sleep cause I have to be up at 5 for school tomorrow!! Wah!!


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Why

Why is it that no matter how hard I try to be a good person and a good friend, I'm always the one getting hurt? Why am I not allowed to ever be happy


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Waking up

Waking up when it's your last day to sleep in and then you have to go back to your busy life again, yeah, it sucks


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One day

I want one day!
One day where I'm not stressed about school or money
One day where I'm not upset about the fact that almost every best friend I thought I had stabbed me in the back
One day off from reality
One day I can try to remember the things that used to make me happy

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3 days

I get to sleep in for 3 days in a row!!! Seriously! The last time that happened was in like December!!! I'm so happy!!

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Feeling ok

Spent the day working on a school project with my best friends from school! Hanging out, pizza, and making giant iPhones really helps when I'm super duper down

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Sunglasses

Finally got myself some prescription sunglasses ordered!! Finally I can drive and not be blinded by the sun


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Why?

I just don't get how someone who hurt you, lied to you, and cheated, is now worth more to you then someone who has been nothing but a friend to you always.
I seriously can't stand fucking people anymore. You try so hard to be there for a person, be their friend and be there for them 100%! But one stupid and awful person gets bored and pretends they love you again, and you drop everything and everyone!


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What?

Seriously world? What did I ever do to deserve all this? No matter what I try, something always goes wrong! I just want to be happy. To feel like I have someone who cares about me and loves me. To feel like things I work hard at, will be accomplished.
But no. I'm alone. I feel like a failure. Nothing has gone right for me in years and I just don't know what I did to deserve this hurt


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Friday

I only get one day off a week, it would be nice to not spend it feeling completely down and alone because no one bothers to care anymore


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So done

If I meant to you even a tad as much as you claim I do, then you wouldn't be hurting me so bad every single day! But clearly I'm just not even a little important to you anymore! So you have no problem stabbing me in the back and hurting me everyday of my life.
And just when I think things are getting better and I'm able to try and stand back up, you're right there again, making sure I don't get up from the dirt you've pushed me into


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Solution

Believe it or not! There is a solution to solve everything!
It's called get rid of her! She's a whore and doesn't deserve you!


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Hate this

I try really really hard not to hate people or things. But I hate her more then I have hated anyone else in the whole world! I hate that because of her, our friendship is ruined! I hate I can't ever be honest with you and tell you how I truly feel because of her!


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What's going on

I wish I could get inside your brain to figure you out. Because one day, it's like nothing has changed and we are best friends and you care about me. And then the next, it's like I don't matter to you at all.

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Puppy

Tay and I went and looked at the puppy we were thinking of getting yesterday, and yup!! In about a month, we will be taking home this adorable little pup! I can't wait to bring him home! He's such a cutie pie!!


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Friends?

It would just feel nice to know my friends actually care about me and want to spend time with me. But it really feels like you don't care anymore and I'm just done! I've spent so much time trying so hard to be there for you! Help you out and be a good friend. And this is what I get in return? Nope! I'm done! Don't expect me to call and ask to hang out anymore! I'm sick of feeling like I don't matter. If you want to see me, you know where to reach me.


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Goodbye

My greatest fear is losing you to someone who doesn't deserve you


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I need strength

I think it would give me so much strength from this horrible cloud I'm living in, to know that you care about me just as much as I care about you.


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Patio

So nice being able to sit outside and enjoy the warmth


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This week

Monday: work
Tuesday: school and dentist
Wednesday: school, project, sugaring
Thursday: my bro's jr high graduation
Friday: puppies
Saturday: hopefully actually relax!
Sunday: pop's birthday!

I already want this week to be over and it hasn't even started


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Dream

I so badly wish the dream I had last night would come true


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Work

I don't want to go to work! I want to go see my best friend! Tell him how much I miss him! Tell him I hate this stupid distance that's been placed between us! Tell him I'll always love him and I just want things to go back to the way they once were!

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Feeling sad

I wish i was important to someone.


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I'm sorry

I miss you everyday.


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Dad

My dad got hit by a deer last night on his way home from work! His car is probably done for, but I'm just happy my pop is ok!


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Imagine Dragons

Had such an amazing brother sister date with Jamie!! Went and saw Imagine Dragons!!! So Fantastic !!!





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:(

It still hurts so bad


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Saturday

So my sis works Saturday evening so I will be home alone.
Should I invite a friend over for a movie night?
Or have a relaxing night in working on videos, and maybe, possibly painting?


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So excited

So excited!! Imagine Dragons tomorrow with my bro!!! Can't wait!!! It's going to be a blast and a half!!


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??

What does it feel like to matter to someone? Have someone love you? Have them treat you like you're perfect? Make you feel like no matter what happens, they will always be there for you?


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Happy?

It seriously feels like someone is looking down on me and preventing me from ever being happy.
I work so hard at work and school and sometimes it just feels like it's not good enough.
I try so hard to be a good person and yet I'm always the one who is always crying and always upset because it's like I can never have anything fair happen to me.
I feel like every friend I have ever had and every person I have ever cared about has stabbed me in the back when all I have ever tried to do was be a good friend.
I don't understand what I did to deserve all this, but I seriously can not take it anymore


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Some friendship

It doesn't really count as talking when literally the only time I ever get to talk to you is from 7-8 in the morning.
You're my best friend and I really wish you would actually talk to me once and a while!
This is bullshit!!
Some friendship!


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I can't do this

I can't do this anymore! Just tell me you don't want me in your life anymore so I can move on and try to forget about you!
I hate that this is what has ruined our friendship! I hate that a while ago, you told me my friendship to you would always come first! Well clearly it doesn't!


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And..

I was feeling a lot better.
And now once again, it's like you don't fucking care at all! Can you at least pretend I matter to you?


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Happy

I don't think you realize how happy it makes me just getting a text from you. I miss you so much.


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Done

I'm sick of people telling me that they care about me! If you cared about me, you wouldn't hurt me on a daily basis and you would maybe actually do something to prove to me that you do! Especially in a time like this when I am feeling beyond depressed.


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Stop

I just want to stop being so mad and upset all the time!! I want one day where I can be happy and not feel like I'm being 100% fake! Is that to much to ask for? Why is it me who is the one who is upset? You pretend you are going through such a hard time but that's all totally bullshit! Do you cry almost every second of everyday? No, you don't! You don't care at all about how much you've hurt me


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Why?

I've never done anything wrong! I've never done anything to hurt anyone I love! So how come I'm the one waking up in the middle of the night bawling my eyes out because I feel like I have no one anymore? I literally feel like moving away somewhere where I can start fresh, leaving my old life behind and just running! I'm tired of feeling like I have no one to turn to when I need someone


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Can't stand this

You would just think after how long and how much we've been through, I would mean a little bit more to you and deserve a little better then how you are treating me


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Work

So badly have I not wanted to go to work! I'm so exhausted! I feel like I got no sleep! Feeling like I'm going to be sick! Really really really, do not want to go in today


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Seriously

Seriously getting so frustrated! What is a person doing for 8 hours that you can't look down and text me back when I am trying to have a god damn conversation with you! Once again! Thanks for showing me how little of importance I am to you!

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One day

Sometimes, one day off is not enough! Not enough time to catch up on sleep! Not enough time to relax! I really just want to not go to work tomorrow and sleep all day. I'm so exhausted

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Laugh

I'm beyond grateful for all my friends I've meet in school. I always feel so loved and just so happy when I'm with them.


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Sad

I wish you knew how much you mean to me! I love you and I miss you. I just want my best friend back.

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No sleep

My school schedule has ruined me of sleeping in! I wake up at 8, wide awake and can not fall back asleep! I just want to sleep in!!


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Disney

I miss being at disney world
I want to be away from all of this. Away from all this bullshit!

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:(

I just want to be happy again ...

I want to remember what it felt like to be happy.
I feel like I have no one anymore. I feel so alone.


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New rule

New rule I'm making for myself, I will no longer text people anymore for plans or anything! I'm getting so tired of being treated like shit from the people I thought were my best friends! Seriously? What did I do to you to deserve to be treated like this? I'm done trying! I'm done being the one who gets hurt when j did nothing wrong! You're the one who stabbed me in the back! You're the one who treats me like I'm not worth anything to you! I didn't do anything to deserve this! I'm done!


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Happy?

Is there a reason that I'm not allowed to be happy? Why I try so hard to be a good friend and a good person and I'm the one who gets stabbed in the back and in the heart every single day? Seriously? What the fuck did I do to deserve this?


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Why?

Why after I try so hard to be a good person and a good friend, I'm the one who ends up hurt and heartbroken every single time?


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Wishes

If I could pack up and move to Ontario, I would! I feel like I have barely anything left here


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Done

At this point, it's like, why bother trying anymore? Every single person I thought was my friend and someone I could trust has stabbed me in the back, made me feel like shit for choices I've made in my life, and I'm done!
I have tried so hard to keep friendships with people who seem to care less about me. So I'm done. If you want to talk, text me. But I'm done trying.


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Ugh

Breaking out like mad!
Can everything just stop for a day please!!!


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Ugh

Never have I wanted so bad to not go to school tomorrow. But I have a test both tomorrow and Friday. So no skipping for me! Fuck! This has literally been such a shitty week

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Struggle

The greatest struggle is deciding whether to get or not get ice cream


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Med term

Took me less then an hour to finish all my med term notes! Best day ever!


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Feeling good

When nothing else works, screaming along to my favourite songs in the car can always put a smile on my face!

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Can't sleep

Because of you, I can't sleep. I have spent so many stupid hours wondering what I could have done differently. All I ever wanted was a friend and I had one. And now you treat like I'm some horrible person. No! I just tried to look out for you. Tried to be there for you. And you're probably fine. You're the one who hurt me, but I'm the one suffering. It's not fair! What did I ever do to deserve this? All I ever did was try to be a good friend. Seriously? What's the point in trying anymore? All it's ever gotten me is pain and heartbreak.

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Friendship

All I have ever tried to do was be a good friend to you! I was there for you when you were upset! I helped you out through everything. But clearly it wasn't good enough. Now when you chose this one thing that has totally ruined everything, I'm not even worthy of an explanation or a goodbye. Sorry I wasted so many hours trying to be there for you. Guess You just meant more to me then I did to you


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Goodbye

Nice to know I'm not even worth a goodbye to you anymore

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Goodbye

It's nice that after everything we went through together, this is how it ends. Goodbye.


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Sad

It's like someone ripped every little bit of happiness I've ever had out from my chest. What did I ever do to deserve this sadness?


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Sunshine

Remember being a kid and being like, I don't want to go to bed, the sun is still up!
Now as an adult, I consider it a success to be in bed when the sun is still up :)

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Nighttime

Seriously! What do I do during the night?


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Sad

Sometimes I hurt and all I want to do is cry because I feel like I'll never be worth anything to anyone.


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I miss you

All I want to do is talk to you! Tell you things about my day! So many times today, I was like, oh my gosh! I have to text you and tell you this!
So thanks :( I feel like shit! Like my best friend doesn't care about me at all anymore!


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Text me

If I meant anything to you ever, let me know. Because at the moment, it feel like everything we ever went through, everything I ever said to you when you were down, meant nothing to you.


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Really?

You can say and pretend that I meant something to you. But if this is how things are going to end, clearly I didn't. If you can't even text me back and talk to me, no I really feel like I meant nothing to you.
You don't get how upset I've been over the last few days. I'm upset at this stupid decision you've made. But even more upset that I'm losing one of my best friends.


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So upset

If you did once care about me ever and still want to continue some kind of relationship, text me, make some kind of contact with me. Because I'm sick of being the only one who is trying and being totally disappointed.


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Worst day

Ugh! Such a stupid day!
The only thing good that happened was that I finished my business communication assignment!


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My friend

All I want is my friend back
I can't believe you let some stupid girl ruin our friendship


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Thanks pop

My daddy filled up my car for me :) !! I have the best Pop ever <3


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Disney World 2016

I know it's still a million years away, but I am sooooo excited to be back with this awesome girl in our home land!! I miss you Tori Pie!! Whenever I'm sad, I just think, only this many more months till I get to go to Disney World again with my girl!! I can't wait!! It's going to be the greatest time ever!!


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Tattoo

I can not wait to get my new tattoo!! I can't even begin to describe how much these words have gotten me through. Especially in the last year. No matter what happens, you are strong and no one can tell you you can't do something. Whenever times seem tough, just remember that you are invincible.


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Why bother

Sometimes it's just like, I give up! Clearly I mean nothing to you


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So exhausted

So exhausted! Got zero sleep last night! And for the first night in forever, it wasn't because I was coughing all night. Nope thanks to someone I thought I loved completely betraying me, I spent all night tossing and turning wondering if it was all true or not. Clearly in my world, there is no such thing as friends. Just people who pretend to be my friend and then hurt me in the worst possible way


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And...

Not getting any sleep tonight!
Not like I've been sick for almost a month and have been losing sleep already because of that. So thanks!
Once again! Fuck you


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Friendship?

It's nice to see my friendship meant nothing to you
When she sucks some other guys fucking cock behind your back, don't come crying to me! I'm done trying so hard to be a good friend and help people through. And I get absolutely shit on over and over again!
You say, "A real friend wouldn't be like this." Yeah! Well a 'real friend' wouldn't throw what I thought was a best friend to the side for a fucking whore whose cheated on you like 17 times already! I'm done! Nice to know nothing I said meant anything to you and my friendship, all those nights where you were upset (mostly about this cunt) and I stayed up talking to you meant absolutely nothing

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I'm done

Remember those days I helped you out? Was there for you when no one else was?
Never again! Fuck you! I can not believe this! I was there for you through fucking everything! And I'm done!


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??

At this point, it's like, what the point anymore? You clearly don't care as much about me as you claim you do. You're just going to do whatever you damn feel like doing even though you know how badly it'll hurt me. And it's like, fuck it! If you can't even bother to talk to me, answer my fucking questions anymore, why do I even bother trying?


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Almost there

Right about ready to explode


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Happy?

I wish I could feel, even for a moment, what it was like to be happy


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Sharks

I had such a scary dream last night!
I dreamt that I was scared of sharks!
What a horrible dream!
Then I woke up and googled pictures of sharks! Remembered how amazing they are!
So all is well!

Sleeping in

If anyone bugs me tomorrow morning, and I mean ANYONE!!! They will see my wrath!! Tomorrow is my first day to sleep In in over a week! And the only day cause I work at 8 AM on Sunday! So yeah! Leave me alone lol


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Dr

Dear doctor at the walk in clinic, Umm no! I don't think I'm fine like you claimed I am! It's been over 3 weeks and I still have a cough! I still have a runny nose, oh yeah, and I have been throwing up almost everything I eat! So yeah! Thanks for nothing! Going to see my actual doctor now!


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I'm sorry

I literally ruin everything good I ever have in my life


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Disney World

I know it's over a year away but I am so excited to go to Disney World next year!! Everything is reminding me of Disney and now I can actually Smile and not be sad about how much I miss Disney

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Jammies

My poor jammies have taken such a beating! These pair I spilled cough medicine on and my last pair I got puke on!


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Can't remember

It would be nice if I could remember what it felt like to be happy.


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So done

I'm surrounded by liars, cheaters and assholes.


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I am sick

If there were any doubts that I was sick, here's my night table


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A sign

If I could get some kind of a sign letting me know I didn't make a horrible mistake. That I didn't completely fuck up my life. That one day I will be happy again, then I know I'll be able to sleep tonight.


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Scrapbooking

Beyond excited to spend tomorrow with my grandma scrapbooking away
Maybe throwing myself into it and remembering my life in Florida will remind me what it's like to feel happiness.
Slowly feel myself slipping back into being depressed

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I want to go back

I dreamt last night that all my friends from school and I were in Disney World doing the CRP program!! That would probably be the greatest time ever!!


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Looking up

Things are already starting to look up! Made plans to go to my grandmas and scrapbook tomorrow :)


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Sleep is good

I ended up getting some sleep and I'm feeling better. The logical side of my brain has taken over and is like, calm the f down jodey!

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Bed

When I lay in bed and try to sleep, I imagine things in my head. I don't ever imagine myself or my future. I make up imaginary people and think of things
But of course, on a evening like now where I am feeling like shit, all i can think is, what if I never get this in my own life?


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Stuck

Right now, I don't know what to do. I don't know who I can turn too. A few weeks ago I was finally feeling happy for the first time in a really long time. And now I feel like I'm back down that road of sadness.

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Feeling worse

I don't know why I did that?
I woke up in a huge coughing fit and laid in bed not being able to fall back asleep
Decided to do a little wandering
And now I feel even more sick then I did before!
Fuck!
God I am so sick of being lied to by my so called friends and I can't stand it anymore!
Definitely will not be sleeping anymore tonight!
I just wish for once in my life when I finally feel happy, like my life is going somewhere positive, IT WOULD FUCKING STAY THERE


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So done

You know that feeling you get when you just wanna throw yourself in front of a bus?


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Ugh

Having such a shitty day
I'm so sick
Had to go to work where people just took an extra dose of bitchy
And just felt all day like once again, I mean absolutely nothing to people.
Sometimes it's like, what's the point anymore?


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Still sick

Still sick! Coughing so bad but I don't feel like I'm going to throw up every second, so I guess I'll go to work today


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Soup

Someone please bring me some soup!

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Ugh

I haven't slept in 3 days. I feel like I'm going to puke. Finally getting decent hours at work and I have to call in cause I'm worried I might throw up everywhere!
This is not what I needed right now! I'm so sick of this all! I'm so done trying to be a good friend. And this is what it gets me!


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Done

I'm so done with this! I'm sick and tired of being there for people over and over again! Having them tell me how to make decisions in my life, and then when I tell them my opinion on something, they completely throw it to the side and ignore what I've said all together. All I have ever done is try to be a good friend. Try to give advice and my opinion. And basically have it thrown in my face that nothing I say will ever matter! So completely done! Don't ask for my opinion ever again if you are going to completely ignore it. And don't come crying to me when what I said was going to happen does! I'm done being a "caring" and "good" friend if this is all it ever gets me. All you're going to get from me from now on is, "I told you so"


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Sick

I hate my body!
Finally getting some decent hours at work, and I have to call in cause I feel like absolute shit! Once again, wishing for once, things could work out good in my life. But clearly they aren't.


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Dinner

I made salmon, rice and broccoli all by myself! I feel like such a grown up :)

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Return policies

I seriously don't understand return policies at stores! If I haven't taken the tags off things and I haven't washed them, I don't see why I shouldn't be able to return them? Sometimes people can be indecisive and take a while to decide whether or not they want an item. It's so frustrating when they are like, "well it's been over 30 days" and that's it? Like seriously? There is nothing wrong with this item! I just changed my mind! I'm the person who has no problem with store credit so if it's given to me, no problem! I'll take it! At some point in time, I'll find something I like there. But it's so annoying when they won't do anything about it! I seriously will no longer shop at stores with a shitty return policy! I can't be the only one! Like places should be losing business when they have dumb as policies like this for clothes!


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No sleep

Got almost no sleep last night! Can't wait to get off work and come home to my cozy bed

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Second semester

Second semester of school had been paid for
Thank you to my awesome parents who have helped me pay for school so I can grow up and get a real job lol


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Allll right

I spent $100 at Sephora, got home and got a notification that they are having an online sale! Re-purchased everything online that i bought in store, going to return what I bought it store! Saved myself like $20 bucks!!!
This day has been a big fat success!!


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Sleep

Waking up after staying up late and having an amazing sleep is the best feeling ever


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Tay and Jode conversations

Tayler: Do you want to order Swiss Chalet for dinner? I have a coupon
Jodey: sure
Tayler: it's delivery, so you call
Jodey: fine, but you have to answer the door
Tayler: but I'm in my pyjamas
Jodey: me too! And I already left the house today! It's your turn!


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So cold

So cold so I laid my heated blanket out on my bed and I'm laying on top of it!
Why did I never think of this before! I'm brilliant!!


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Imagine Dragons

Going to see Imagine Dragons on June 5 with my little bro!!! So excited!! Going to be so much fun!!


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Sleep in

It's a happy day in Jodey's life when I get to sleep in until 8 :)


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My bed

I had to rearrange my pillows in order to study in my room on my bed (if I study anywhere else I get distracted with the TV). Now my pillow nest has been ruined!! Took so long to get my nest perfect and exactly how I liked it! Now it'll take months to get it back!
First world problems


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Studying

Well with a couple breaks in between, I have been studying since 9 this morning. Not quite 12 hours because I did have a couple breaks to eat and whatnot.
I'm calling it for the evening! Time for a shower then bed

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Med term

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Sleep

I love waking up after having an absolutely amazing sleep!
Last night I studied until about 11:30 at night and I watched a little youtube until 12:30 and then past out. I woke up at 9 and literally nothing woke me up! Usually my sister opening the garage door to go to work wakes me a little but not today!
Such a great sleep!
Definitely needed that after a crazy week of tests and presentations!


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Studying

One more online quiz then I'll go to bed!
So much studying



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Last day

Last day of semester one!!!


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Mmm

Dad: do any of you guys like sushi?
Mom: I like California rolls
Jamie: I like spring rolls
Me: I like cinnamon rolls

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This week

2 tests down and 1 to go!
Presented project yesterday!
Got 86% and 80% on my 2 tests!
Feeling very good and somewhat more prepared for finals


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Pack pack

I'll pack you in the morning


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Fgl no more

Just realized I left my Florida Georgia Line CD in my old car :(
It's a sad day at Jodey's house


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Shopping

Having one of those days where all I want to do is some online shopping! Who wants to give me their credit card number?

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Bed

Laying in bed this morning, i checked my paycheck, paid my MasterCard and never left the comfort of my pillow nest! What was life like before smart phones?

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Sleep

Feels so good to sleep in ! These next couple weeks are going to be madness but I'm looking forward to finishing up my first semester of school!

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Haha

Me: yes! I get paid on Friday! I feel like it's been a million years since I got paid!
Morgan: did you just say it's been a million years since you got laid?
Me: haha no paid! But that too!


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Hooray! Hours!

Freaked out for a second thinking, why the hell am I working so much! But I remembered I asked work if I could have full time hours during my exam break!! Thanks work! You're the best!


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Train driver

I would like to give a shout out the the guy driving the train this morning! I got to the station and the train was there. The driver waited for me while I quickly ran and validated my ticket and even opened a door for me to get on!
Thank you!
Finally a good experience on Calgary transit

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Goodbye

Had to say goodbye to my first car. My Nissan Sentra! It was a good little car and lasted till the end! Many memories were made in this car as it was both me and my sister's first car! I will miss it! Thanks for getting me around little guy!


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Taking the train

This is my rant about why I hate taking the train
1: people seem to think personal hygiene does not matter! I am always standing by the man who smells like he hasn't showered in months
2: if you are standing, hold on to a pole! I get bumped into people a million times because they are standing and decide to read. So when the train stops, they fall back into people
3: I never sit on the train! I always stand right by the door so I don't have to push my way through people go get off at my stop.
4: when it is time for me to get off, people standing on the platform trying to get on the train, move out of the way and let people off! Don't stand in their way or try to push past everyone to get on! Wait for 3 seconds for everyone to get off and then you can get on

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Med term

For the next 3 weeks, my life revolves around medical terminology. Then I get a 2 week break, and I'll be back at it again!


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This weekend

This weekend has been mad!
I have been so busy and had no time to just stop and rest except when I went to bed.
Saturday was my bro's 15 birthday so we had lunch with him and then went over to my parents for his party, didn't get home from that until about 12
Sunday I worked and right after work, had people from class over to work on a project
Today, worked, came home, did an online quiz, and now working on med term notes until I go to sleep!
So looking forward to this short week of school!


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So pretty

I love the way it smells after it's been raining all night


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Happy?

Maybe this is finally my chance to be happy :)


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Goodbye

Goodbye to my Nissan Sentra! It has been officially written off :(


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Windsong

Attention people of Windsong! I was going to be a pleasant neighbour but now I'm pissed!!
So from now on, I don't give a fuck! If your fucking music is playing loud or your fucking dog is barking all hours of the night, I'm fucking reporting it!
Apparently trying hard to be a good fucking person in this world is not working! I'm so fucking done


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Nope

There is no such thing as karma


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Thanks a lot

Because my neighbours are such dicks, I got a fucking parking ticket for parking outside my own god damn fucking house!! You have got to be fucking kidding me!! As if I'm not dealing with enough fucking stress!
Let me tell you! If you have the balls to call the police and complain about me parking beside my own home, during the summer when you sit in your garage blasting your music, don't be surprised if the cops show up either!
Fuck! I am so done!! I can not catch a break! This is absolute bullshit! I parked there everyday until I was able to park in the garage, and now for the few weeks I can't, I get a fucking ticket! I am so pissed!
Once again, another great weekend has been ruined!


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Scarf

Had a horrible problem this morning! Could not decide what scarf I wanted to wear! But I am going with my owl scarf! Can't go wrong with owls I believe!


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Sis

The only person I'd stay up this late with on a school night, my sis :)

Yes it's only 10 pm! I need my sleep!


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Fire pit

Wish I had a fire pit so I could have fires during the summer. Roast hot dogs and marshmallows :)

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Feeling better

Starting to feel a little better!
Selling my stuff like hot cakes on varage! And just got a bunch of money from work for success shares! Still not swimming in money or anything but at least feeling like I don't have to stress like crazy anymore. I just gotta keep saving and not spending so much

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Work

Don't start work until 6 today!
Best day ever!

My Day

Had a very busy day where I was actually out of the house for a full 12 hours!
It was a very busy but fun day!
I even got some scrapbooking in!

College day

I don't know what this whole "college day" is about, but I like it! I had such a fun Tuesday night! And a very relaxing Wednesday!! Actually got to sit and paint again!! This needs to happen more often!


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Wednesday

It's Wednesday and I'm not in school! What the hell am I to do with myself!?


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Grr

Doesn't help that the government has decided I'm not allowed to claim anything I made when I was working in the states! Like cool! Thanks! Now I have to pay the stupid government!! Ugh!! I better get a wicked tax return this year!


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Money

It really stinks! I could be painting my life away to sell things but I literally have no time to paint between all my school work and working.
It's really hard and I am super worried about money right now


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Car

Really nervous I'm going to have to get a new car :(
Who knows what I'll get from my car and I'm so bloody broke right now!
Definitely not the time to have been getting into a car accident!


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Home

Happily back in my own comfy bed


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Scrapbooking

I left school early today cause I wasn't feeling good. I got to go to my grandma's and do some scrapbooking!! Haven't done any scrapbooking in months!!! So happy!


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Just want to sleep

Spent a week not being able to sleep on my side cause of my earring. Now I can't move at all in my sleep cause my back and neck hurt like a monster
When will I ever get a good nights sleep again!


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Owwie

SOOOO sore!!! This is my don't care about today/don't mess with me look! Car accidents are no fun! Especially when you also have to lug around an enormous med term text book all day!


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Not up for it

Well it's Tuesday so I gotta go to school! My back and neck are killing me and I have to lug around my huge med term textbook! Very much not looking forward to today!


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Happy

All I want is to be happy

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Anyone?

Anyone want to give me their credit card number? Some online shopping would really cheer me up right about now.


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My life

Wouldn't it be nice if for once in my fucking life I didn't get completely shit on by everything!? What did I ever fucking do to deserve this? Car accident! No money! Friends treating me like crap! Seriously! Nothing can ever go right ever! I have tried so hard to be a good person and work hard and be a good friend. I seriously don't understand what I ever did so fucking wrong that I got stuck with this life of sadness, depression and hiding my anger.


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Home Depot

I am so lucky to work where I do. Today when I came into work upset about what happened, one supervisor went to Timmy's and got me a hot chocolate. Another head cashier has told me anything I need, let him know and he'll get it. He's letting me stay in the back today and do online training since I'm just not up to being on the floor today. I've worked places where I would ask to leave early cause I felt so sick and they wouldn't let me. Honestly, I feel blessed to be working at a place like this where if I'm upset and need to go sit down, get off the floor, or even go home early, they will make it happen. Thank you employees of Home Depot who treat me not as a co-worker, but a person.


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Today

I seriously can not catch a break! I have such a great Saturday! Thinking, this is going to be such a good weekend! But no, someone above has to strike down on me. Maybe I should just never ever leave my house.

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Saturday

Having such a wonderful Saturday :)


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Painting

For the first time since Christmas, I am going to paint!!! I am so excited!!!


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Face stuff

Tried out a cleanser I got as a sample from sephora.


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