I am sick

If there were any doubts that I was sick, here's my night table


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A sign

If I could get some kind of a sign letting me know I didn't make a horrible mistake. That I didn't completely fuck up my life. That one day I will be happy again, then I know I'll be able to sleep tonight.


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Scrapbooking

Beyond excited to spend tomorrow with my grandma scrapbooking away
Maybe throwing myself into it and remembering my life in Florida will remind me what it's like to feel happiness.
Slowly feel myself slipping back into being depressed

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I want to go back

I dreamt last night that all my friends from school and I were in Disney World doing the CRP program!! That would probably be the greatest time ever!!


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Looking up

Things are already starting to look up! Made plans to go to my grandmas and scrapbook tomorrow :)


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Sleep is good

I ended up getting some sleep and I'm feeling better. The logical side of my brain has taken over and is like, calm the f down jodey!

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Bed

When I lay in bed and try to sleep, I imagine things in my head. I don't ever imagine myself or my future. I make up imaginary people and think of things
But of course, on a evening like now where I am feeling like shit, all i can think is, what if I never get this in my own life?


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