Done

I'm sick of people telling me that they care about me! If you cared about me, you wouldn't hurt me on a daily basis and you would maybe actually do something to prove to me that you do! Especially in a time like this when I am feeling beyond depressed.


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Stop

I just want to stop being so mad and upset all the time!! I want one day where I can be happy and not feel like I'm being 100% fake! Is that to much to ask for? Why is it me who is the one who is upset? You pretend you are going through such a hard time but that's all totally bullshit! Do you cry almost every second of everyday? No, you don't! You don't care at all about how much you've hurt me


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Why?

I've never done anything wrong! I've never done anything to hurt anyone I love! So how come I'm the one waking up in the middle of the night bawling my eyes out because I feel like I have no one anymore? I literally feel like moving away somewhere where I can start fresh, leaving my old life behind and just running! I'm tired of feeling like I have no one to turn to when I need someone


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Can't stand this

You would just think after how long and how much we've been through, I would mean a little bit more to you and deserve a little better then how you are treating me


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Work

So badly have I not wanted to go to work! I'm so exhausted! I feel like I got no sleep! Feeling like I'm going to be sick! Really really really, do not want to go in today


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Seriously

Seriously getting so frustrated! What is a person doing for 8 hours that you can't look down and text me back when I am trying to have a god damn conversation with you! Once again! Thanks for showing me how little of importance I am to you!

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One day

Sometimes, one day off is not enough! Not enough time to catch up on sleep! Not enough time to relax! I really just want to not go to work tomorrow and sleep all day. I'm so exhausted

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Laugh

I'm beyond grateful for all my friends I've meet in school. I always feel so loved and just so happy when I'm with them.


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Sad

I wish you knew how much you mean to me! I love you and I miss you. I just want my best friend back.

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No sleep

My school schedule has ruined me of sleeping in! I wake up at 8, wide awake and can not fall back asleep! I just want to sleep in!!


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Disney

I miss being at disney world
I want to be away from all of this. Away from all this bullshit!

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:(

I just want to be happy again ...

I want to remember what it felt like to be happy.
I feel like I have no one anymore. I feel so alone.


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New rule

New rule I'm making for myself, I will no longer text people anymore for plans or anything! I'm getting so tired of being treated like shit from the people I thought were my best friends! Seriously? What did I do to you to deserve to be treated like this? I'm done trying! I'm done being the one who gets hurt when j did nothing wrong! You're the one who stabbed me in the back! You're the one who treats me like I'm not worth anything to you! I didn't do anything to deserve this! I'm done!


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Happy?

Is there a reason that I'm not allowed to be happy? Why I try so hard to be a good friend and a good person and I'm the one who gets stabbed in the back and in the heart every single day? Seriously? What the fuck did I do to deserve this?


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Why?

Why after I try so hard to be a good person and a good friend, I'm the one who ends up hurt and heartbroken every single time?


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Wishes

If I could pack up and move to Ontario, I would! I feel like I have barely anything left here


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Done

At this point, it's like, why bother trying anymore? Every single person I thought was my friend and someone I could trust has stabbed me in the back, made me feel like shit for choices I've made in my life, and I'm done!
I have tried so hard to keep friendships with people who seem to care less about me. So I'm done. If you want to talk, text me. But I'm done trying.


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Ugh

Breaking out like mad!
Can everything just stop for a day please!!!


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Ugh

Never have I wanted so bad to not go to school tomorrow. But I have a test both tomorrow and Friday. So no skipping for me! Fuck! This has literally been such a shitty week

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Struggle

The greatest struggle is deciding whether to get or not get ice cream


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Med term

Took me less then an hour to finish all my med term notes! Best day ever!


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Feeling good

When nothing else works, screaming along to my favourite songs in the car can always put a smile on my face!

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Can't sleep

Because of you, I can't sleep. I have spent so many stupid hours wondering what I could have done differently. All I ever wanted was a friend and I had one. And now you treat like I'm some horrible person. No! I just tried to look out for you. Tried to be there for you. And you're probably fine. You're the one who hurt me, but I'm the one suffering. It's not fair! What did I ever do to deserve this? All I ever did was try to be a good friend. Seriously? What's the point in trying anymore? All it's ever gotten me is pain and heartbreak.

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Friendship

All I have ever tried to do was be a good friend to you! I was there for you when you were upset! I helped you out through everything. But clearly it wasn't good enough. Now when you chose this one thing that has totally ruined everything, I'm not even worthy of an explanation or a goodbye. Sorry I wasted so many hours trying to be there for you. Guess You just meant more to me then I did to you


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Goodbye

Nice to know I'm not even worth a goodbye to you anymore

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Goodbye

It's nice that after everything we went through together, this is how it ends. Goodbye.


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Sad

It's like someone ripped every little bit of happiness I've ever had out from my chest. What did I ever do to deserve this sadness?


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Sunshine

Remember being a kid and being like, I don't want to go to bed, the sun is still up!
Now as an adult, I consider it a success to be in bed when the sun is still up :)

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Nighttime

Seriously! What do I do during the night?


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Sad

Sometimes I hurt and all I want to do is cry because I feel like I'll never be worth anything to anyone.


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I miss you

All I want to do is talk to you! Tell you things about my day! So many times today, I was like, oh my gosh! I have to text you and tell you this!
So thanks :( I feel like shit! Like my best friend doesn't care about me at all anymore!


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Text me

If I meant anything to you ever, let me know. Because at the moment, it feel like everything we ever went through, everything I ever said to you when you were down, meant nothing to you.


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Really?

You can say and pretend that I meant something to you. But if this is how things are going to end, clearly I didn't. If you can't even text me back and talk to me, no I really feel like I meant nothing to you.
You don't get how upset I've been over the last few days. I'm upset at this stupid decision you've made. But even more upset that I'm losing one of my best friends.


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So upset

If you did once care about me ever and still want to continue some kind of relationship, text me, make some kind of contact with me. Because I'm sick of being the only one who is trying and being totally disappointed.


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Worst day

Ugh! Such a stupid day!
The only thing good that happened was that I finished my business communication assignment!


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My friend

All I want is my friend back
I can't believe you let some stupid girl ruin our friendship


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Thanks pop

My daddy filled up my car for me :) !! I have the best Pop ever <3


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Disney World 2016

I know it's still a million years away, but I am sooooo excited to be back with this awesome girl in our home land!! I miss you Tori Pie!! Whenever I'm sad, I just think, only this many more months till I get to go to Disney World again with my girl!! I can't wait!! It's going to be the greatest time ever!!


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Tattoo

I can not wait to get my new tattoo!! I can't even begin to describe how much these words have gotten me through. Especially in the last year. No matter what happens, you are strong and no one can tell you you can't do something. Whenever times seem tough, just remember that you are invincible.


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Why bother

Sometimes it's just like, I give up! Clearly I mean nothing to you


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So exhausted

So exhausted! Got zero sleep last night! And for the first night in forever, it wasn't because I was coughing all night. Nope thanks to someone I thought I loved completely betraying me, I spent all night tossing and turning wondering if it was all true or not. Clearly in my world, there is no such thing as friends. Just people who pretend to be my friend and then hurt me in the worst possible way


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And...

Not getting any sleep tonight!
Not like I've been sick for almost a month and have been losing sleep already because of that. So thanks!
Once again! Fuck you


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Friendship?

It's nice to see my friendship meant nothing to you
When she sucks some other guys fucking cock behind your back, don't come crying to me! I'm done trying so hard to be a good friend and help people through. And I get absolutely shit on over and over again!
You say, "A real friend wouldn't be like this." Yeah! Well a 'real friend' wouldn't throw what I thought was a best friend to the side for a fucking whore whose cheated on you like 17 times already! I'm done! Nice to know nothing I said meant anything to you and my friendship, all those nights where you were upset (mostly about this cunt) and I stayed up talking to you meant absolutely nothing

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I'm done

Remember those days I helped you out? Was there for you when no one else was?
Never again! Fuck you! I can not believe this! I was there for you through fucking everything! And I'm done!


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??

At this point, it's like, what the point anymore? You clearly don't care as much about me as you claim you do. You're just going to do whatever you damn feel like doing even though you know how badly it'll hurt me. And it's like, fuck it! If you can't even bother to talk to me, answer my fucking questions anymore, why do I even bother trying?


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Almost there

Right about ready to explode


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Happy?

I wish I could feel, even for a moment, what it was like to be happy


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Sharks

I had such a scary dream last night!
I dreamt that I was scared of sharks!
What a horrible dream!
Then I woke up and googled pictures of sharks! Remembered how amazing they are!
So all is well!

Sleeping in

If anyone bugs me tomorrow morning, and I mean ANYONE!!! They will see my wrath!! Tomorrow is my first day to sleep In in over a week! And the only day cause I work at 8 AM on Sunday! So yeah! Leave me alone lol


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Dr

Dear doctor at the walk in clinic, Umm no! I don't think I'm fine like you claimed I am! It's been over 3 weeks and I still have a cough! I still have a runny nose, oh yeah, and I have been throwing up almost everything I eat! So yeah! Thanks for nothing! Going to see my actual doctor now!


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I'm sorry

I literally ruin everything good I ever have in my life


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Disney World

I know it's over a year away but I am so excited to go to Disney World next year!! Everything is reminding me of Disney and now I can actually Smile and not be sad about how much I miss Disney

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Jammies

My poor jammies have taken such a beating! These pair I spilled cough medicine on and my last pair I got puke on!


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Can't remember

It would be nice if I could remember what it felt like to be happy.


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So done

I'm surrounded by liars, cheaters and assholes.


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